I was very involved in ministry on campus most of my
student years. But when I reached my 5th
year, I began student teaching and had to step out of student ministry during
that time as the preparation for teaching my classes took up most of my
time. I slowly began to have a nagging
feeling that God wasn’t as pleased with me as He was when I was ‘serving’ Him
daily on campus. I understood in my head
that He loves me and is pleased with me no matter what, but deep in my heart I still
struggled with the idea that I needed to work somehow to earn His pleasure.
This summer I started working through a workbook called,
Discovering our spiritual identities (practices for God’s Beloved). It was the subtitle that caught my eye. I am really enjoying going through the
exercises understanding my ‘belovedness’ is based on God’s heart rather than on what I do for Him.
I wanted to share with you one of the exercises that I
have enjoyed the most so far. It is to
write what the author, Trevor Hudson, calls ‘a personal beloved charter.’ The Beloved Charter (I call mine, ‘my
beloved letter’) “induces us to see
ourselves through the eyes of the Holy One and to feel about ourselves the way
God feels [about us].” As an
example, here is Trevor’s “Beloved Charter”:
Trevor, you are My
beloved child in whom I delight. You did
not choose Me, but I chose you. You are
My friend. I formed your inward parts
and knitted you together in your mother’s womb. You are fearfully and wonderfully
made a little lower than the angels, and crowned with glory and honor. You have been created in Christ Jesus for good
works which I have already prepared to be your way of life. When you pass through the waters, I will be
with you, and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you, when you walk
through fire you shall not be burned and the flames shall not consume you. You are precious in my sight, and honored,
and I love you. I know all your
longings; your sighing is not hidden from Me.
Nothing will ever be able to separate you from My love in Christ Jesus,
your Lord. Abide in My love.
When I read Trevor’s ‘Beloved charter’ I had a sense of
the deep issues that his heart must struggle with. I thought about which verses in the Bible
really grab my heart and soul when I read them and so I came up with my own
‘Beloved charter/letter’. You will see
the deeper struggles of my heart (belonging, longing to experience grace and
kindness, to be ‘fancied’/enjoyed/wanted – I’m a girl!).
O Hephzibah, My delight is in you! You are Mine and I am yours and together We
belong to God. You are precious in My
sight and I love you, I am with you and nothing can separate you from My love.
I desire your beauty. I rejoice over you,
I sing and shout over you.
I will betroth you to Me forever in
faithfulness and in kindness and compassion.
I long to be gracious to you… to have compassion on you. I will allure [woo] you and speak kindly to
you. I have loved you with an everlasting love.
I have drawn you with loving-kindness. I will surround you and enfold you with
unfailing love .
I think about you all day long, I sing
over you throughout the night. I cannot
stop thinking about you and the number of My thoughts toward you cannot be
counted. I watch over everything that
concerns you. You are My beloved, Hephzibah!
I have called you by name and you are Mine!
I heartily encourage you to write your own ‘Beloved
letter’! Read it frequently. Delight that He simply loves you; it is not
based on what you do! Abide in His
love. Let your service flow out of your
relationship with Him.